Huautlan mural of Maria Sabina, the magic mushroom curandera - foto by smithin god we’re trussed. i keep looking for answers in the great answer sham. keeps turning out to be a scam.
part 1.
ate the last of our mushrooms. we turned 3 doses into two to up the amperage. we had kept the remaining mushrooms in the fridge in their banana leaf wrappers inside a ziplock baggie, and a white mold grew on them. researched it online and it says the mold is harmless but look out for black slimy mold shrooms. we did. now we wait and wonder - wonder if we’re going to get off, wonder if we’ll get sick.
part 2.
well, we got off. colors, patterns, hallucinations. but no joy or feeling of one-ness for me. no being born away by forces greater than myself, which is what i’d hoped. i want to be taken outside myself because i’m weary of being inside myself. lady being a smaller lighter creature got some joy and intellectual awareness of oneness. she would have had more, but this is her 3rd mushroom munching in 9 days, and her trip switch needs time off to reset.
part 3.
don’t understand it. the fresh magic mushrooms here don’t seem to be as powerful as the dried mushrooms i did in the states over the years. and the trip duration is about two hours, a much shorter duration than stateside. evidently need a larger dose. a single dose did nothing. a dose and a half got colors and hallucinations. perhaps a double dose would bring some spirituality and joy. unfortunately i’ve lost interest in the process.
lady’s interest on the other hand is fueled, fanned, and flamed. i’ve got myself a mind searching psychedelic alternate reality seeking vision questing pilgrim on my hands, so i assume i’ll be trying other things along the way. she’s seeking salvia divinorum now, is wondering about lsd, and is considering a journey to the town of “real de catorce” to try their peyote cactus buds.
i walked through the doors of perception 40 years ago. it changed me. did hundreds of trips since for fun and intellectual profit, enough to have been there done that and be done with it. now i’m solely interested in reality sifting in a soul setting situation, exploring the other side in a reality weighing way. i need to try again with a shaman guide, although i expect that’s just one more money making spiritual scam. it goes back to that old saying “if you meet buddha on the road, kill him” - you can’t go outside yourself to do work on your inside. we’re all our own shaman. external shamans give you the shaft.
part 4.
and so today we begin our third year living outside the united states. it’s been an eye heart mind soul opening experience.
Huautlan painting of Maria Sabina, the magic mushroom curandera - foto by smith |
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