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neckbonethey were going in twixt 3rd & 4th disc

My surgeon called yesterday. My laminectomy and spinal fusion scheduled tomorrow is canceled. He checked my charts and saw I’ve been getting B-12 shots because minimum B-12 is 300 and I’m down to 90 (likely due to not eating very much meat), and the symptoms that set the neck surgery in motion are the same symptoms for low B-12. So they’ll wait to see if I get better when my B-12 is satisfactory – if not, they’ll operate right away.

Soooooo, Lady’s and my days of neck-intrusion spinal-column-scrapping metal-neck-rod-insertion worry was either unnecessary or merely practice for the real thing.

I could do without them going into my neck from the back and scraping bone and cartilage from inside my spinal column and leaving two metal rods screwed in when they exit. Be nice if B-12 were the culprit, but I don’t believe it is.

Feel lighter in my mind knowing I won’t be cut open tomorrow morning, but feel cheated too because of the fear and worry we’ve already invested, plus I believe we’ll have to go through this again in a couple months.

Status Report 202

Waiting to see if there’ll be spinal surgery.

Sometimes I turn off part of my brain
and just endure until I can think again.

– Smith, 4.20.2016

Tis 4/20 . . . The Church of the Perpetual 420 believes I should smoke marijuana today, especially at 4:20 this afternoon. Hmmmmm, next year I’ll have to set my alarm so I can honor 4:20 a.m. as well as p.m., and in the year 2420 I’ll have to smoke 24/365.

The Church of the Perpetual 420

Worship in my church
of cannabis and caffeine,
mellowing the fast.

Way before sun up,
cup of coffee and a toke
lighten dark within.

Out of grass I am
so must face this flux and flow
of slow go with gone.

O.Z. can you say
by my pipe’s first fired light
just how hale you are?

Ritual of hope:
first fill of pipe, take of toke,
mellow wing of smoke.

– Smith, 2014

redkushit’s  always 4:20 somewhere in the Universe

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