hanging balance - foto by Smith

My EGO is angry at the Crisis Chronicles Online Library — it has 23 entries for ME while other relatively unimportant nobody writers have way more, and I mean really minor talents such as

William Shakespeare with 155 entries
1600s = 181
1800s = 322
1900s = 765
2000s = 277
African American = 95
Autobiography = 28
BC = 60
British = 415
Cleveland = 238
e.e. cummings = 31
Emily Dickenson = 25
Hilda Doolittle = 66
Fyodor Dostoevsky = 26
Paul Laurence Dunbar = 37
Greek = 39
Indian = 24
Irish = 105
d.a. levy = 39
Edgar Lee Masters = 122 (it is hard to compete with the dead)
Edna St. Vincent Millay = 91
Novels = 32
Philosophy = 70
Plato = 24 (at least he only beat me by one)
Poetry has 1,375 entries (WOW ! ! !)
Religion = 28
Russian = 28 (what about Russian Religion???)
Short Stories = 56
Tres Versing The Panda = 35
Video = 150
Walt Whitman = 34
Oscar Wilde = 58
William Carlos Williams = 95
William Butler Yeats = 84

(This count is on the morning of March 20, 2010 . . . by the time you read this my count will be way off because the man adds entries faster than I can read them.)

At least I beat the Bhagavad-Gita (18), and I suppose I can’t rail too much about the 1900s, the 2000s, Poetry and Cleveland categories since I’m a subset.

My closest poet competitors are Lord Byron (17 entries); Langston Hughes, James Joyce, and Ken Kitt (18 each); Samuel T. Coleridge (19); Essays (20), and Kevin Bernhard (21). Kevin Bernhard is local, living, prolific and proficient, so I may have to kill him to keep him from overtaking me.

Oddly enough, the publisher/editor John ‘Jesus Crisis’ Burroughs only has 3 entries of his own poetry in the library. Don’t know if this is modesty or a desire to publish fresh elsewhere.

In spite of his having so few entries by me, I recommend stopping by - just the entries for Autobiography, Novels, Philosophy, Poetry, Religion, Essays, and Short Stories alone total 1,603.

(Crisis obeys the copyright laws; that’s why the entries are heavily weighted towards older writings where the copyright has passed into public domain; all current copywrit entries have been granted permission.)

FLASH - Crisis added a 10 minute video of me reading seven poems at the 12-hour Snoetry reading in Eastern, Pennsylvania last January 16. The video is a fair rendering of my current reading style. Once he adds it to the Crisis Online Library, I’ll have 24 entries, same as that upstart dude Plato. Check the video out at youtube.com/watch?v=u2Is3a_q7Ug.

It is rare for me to get a glimpse of myself performing. I see I need to get more force, joy and pizzazz in my performance to fly to the next level, interact between poems with the audience, look them in the eye more, and recite the dozen poems I’ve memorized rather than relying on the paper to protect me. I’m still too shy, enclosed and buttoned-down to let myself go in public - but oh you should see me in private . . . just ask Lady.

I’ve got good material; if I can get the performance and presentation clicking, there’ll be no business like poem business.

PS - The Crisis Library also has 13 entries for Lady K you can check out - Lady K.

The Crisis Chronicles Online Library is library.crisischronicles.com.

The blog the library is attached to — the tao, how, and what now of Jesus Crisis — is crisisblog.crisischronicles.com/.

trust and influence Smith - foto by Smith

me running from yesterday’s statements - foto by Smith

My mea culpa.

I mis-spoke in yesterday’s blog, got cavalier and smudged my point when I said 1% of creative output is special and the other 99% throw-away. An unfortunate choice of words.

My words were short-speak referencing a theory I’d read which said over the thousands of years of human history, basically 1% of the creative output of each year is saved and passed on, so you get this slowly expanding impressive pile of culture that contains Beowulf, Shakespeare, Camus, Faulkner, Bach, Bob Dylan (but not Britney Spears or Mariah Carey), and every new year 1% of its plays, movies, songs, books, poems, paintings, etc are added to this continuously accumulating cultural accretion. The other 99% of each year’s cultural output is essentially forgotten over time, even though it affects the next year’s.

I sort of agree with this. But I mis-characterized the 99% - it’s not throw-away; rather each year’s output is more along the lines of 1% genius, 9% real good, 20% good, 30% so-so, 20% so, and 20% in need of vitamins.

And with poetry I average this over my spectrum. On my one hand, we have a large roster of amazing reading and writing poets in Cleveland. In fact as Lady and I read our poetry in London, Krakow, and Oaxaca from 2006 through 2008, we decided Cleveland had the liveliest, edgiest and most dynamic poetry scene of them all. But on my other hand I’ve been reading massive amounts of famous and unknown poets in books past and present and I’m finding more less than more, especially when evaluated over time.

I also have to factor in how I’ve become a tougher critic after trolling through poetry scenes for 47 years and collating my own pile of impressive poetic impressions and poems along the way so I tend to end up comparing my past years’ highlights to this year’s readings.

This 10% quality level also seems to hold true within individual poets/artists careers — even with such an acknowledged master as T.S. Eliot, 90% of his output is more or less so-so while much of his 10% genius output cannot be understood without footnotes and explanations. Same thing with Wallace Stevens, e.e. cummings, William Carlos Williams — mostly 10% decent and 90% filler.

Part of me says I shouldn’t be judging in the first place, that I should just listen and learn, but there is so much poetry out there I can’t possibly hear or read or embrace it all so I have to select, and selection is evaluation is analysis is judgment. For example, I admire and appreciate the poetry of Wallace Stevens a heck of a lot more than the verse of Rod McKuen and his American Greeting Card school of poetry.

A general lack of analysis and judgment in most folk is how Sarah Palin, George W. Bush and Dick Cheney ended up in Government instead of programs for brain transplants (for the first two) or psycho wards (for Cheney).

Anyway, I tend to go to readings these days hoping to hear voices I don’t know because I already know the voices I do know — I’ve heard most my poet friends hundreds of times, hear their voices in my head when I read their words upon the page. One of my greatest pleasures is hearing first time readers and imagining how they’ll grow and blossom through the years. I’m getting to the point where I’m going to readings more to keep friends happy than to hear poetry simply because I’ve heard so much for 47 years that it frequently has the feeling of been there done that.

As for my second complaint in yesterday’s blog that there was less and less actual poetry in poetry lately and more and more confession, diary entry, mundane lies and lives, whining, wishing, vignettes, short stories and description - well while this is true, it misses the point that if it is done right, written well, each of these genres can produce genius poems as well. Ann Sexton is a good example of confessional poetry frequently working. It is all how it is done. Even in tired formula movies, excellence can arise from a fresh interpretation — like District 9 in the sci-fi genre — and although a famous artist once said “rap was short for crap” (which is mostly true), folks like Public Enemy still come up with killer content. A perfect example of this is accordion music, which I find usually to be shallow oompa oompa German band shit can fly high in genius territory for Lady and I came across three accordion players in the old square in Krakow who were playing fantastic intricate classical music pieces and raking in the dough from the tourists.

Perhaps the perfect example of this is my friend Jeff Chiplis, whose found neon sculptures I highlighted in yesterday’s blog. Neon is ubiquitous and mundane — you’ll find beer signs in every bar, endless restaurant signs, check-cashing signs, even sign signs everywhere. Chiplis has taken this particular mundane and made it new again so it sparkles and brings a lift to your heart and a smile to your face simply by taking the old apart and recombining it into new.

(I wrote this blog because Jesus Crisis aka John Burroughs called me on my 1% statement yesterday, and he was right.)

Lady’s bath - foto by Smith

Utility and inverse utility. Little Nemo, crawling softly in broken glass. Cloud hypothesis. Does my gospel grope my thought? I kneed the immovable putty of your chest. The Dada utility chings channels. The Dada utility is aware.

Two can be afraid. A mistake is involved in entirely. Give in to release. Weather from or where art for. Insight from Grace. That which is left behind when the wave bleeds. That which is imparted in lipped licks. That which creates is drawn to us in waves.

Light is the eye of God, a momentary respite. Receiving is believing. The shadowed profile of your bust tangled in the garden. The emptying of the urn. Say it and it becomes yours.

- Lady K

Even a shape
has a feeling,
an angle
a corner.

Grief
is close to
loathing,
but on the other side of
amazement.

I hope, I hope.
“Social astuteness,”
I mutter to myself.

Science
has always been a fetish–
covetable. My subconscious
is my foil.

Cognitive dissonance is
inevitable.
I smosh down one thing,
another pops up
to take its place.

The zebra represents
transcendence and
obfuscation of
transcendence.

How conscious
are we
of constructing

our nests?
And aren’t possessions
a way
of decorating the nest?

I want It as It is.
“Keep Feeling Fascination”
plays in my head l
ike the doppler trail
of a car…

Rats
might be one of my favorite
animals. Rats are
more interested in novelty
than drugs.

Reminiscent, reminiscent of…
the stairs to the loft…
my favorite movie,
BladeRunner.

It chings for me,
remembering madness
with nostalgia,
the balm of work.

Wearing a marketing hat lately
has given me
a new respect
for the art.

Nostalgia–
a sentimental
yearning.

- Lady K