‘Skydoor’ Oaxaca Portal – photo by Lady
Bought mezcal and drank some–it’s smooth–I can drink it straight. Snowman says the Oaxacans always drink something with it, like lime juice.
Trying to get motivated and out of consumer/tourist mode.
Sinking a little into emptiness… and then I remember that’s how I always feel if I don’t keep myself busy. I have to have PROJECTS.
A girlfriend told me she always turned on the TV so that she didn’t have to think. This must be the same thing I feel when my brain is left to its own devices.
I also haven’t run for a while, which could be affecting my mood, but I’m afraid that if I run I’ll be hungry, I’ll overeat, I’ll gain 5 pounds and have to lose it again. I’ve been working on this same 5 pounds for over two years. Gotta just DO it, lose the last 15 pounds. Maybe only have sweets on special holidays; that ought to do it.
Feel more shit coming on. My shit has been soft since we got here. The first shit I took in Mexico was liquid. My stomach is burbling now… off to the bathroom. Now my shit is like firm pudding. It pluffs out.
SO, what PROJECTS can I do? (I’ve gotta give myself more structure.)
– type in my journal every morning
– find a printer and make some photos – bring them around to restaurants and coffeeshops, English lending library
– work an hour a day on Spanish
– meet Spanish speaker once or twice a week
– work on ‘Criminal’