 sky smith – foto by smith i don’t like doing dishes, making the bed, picking up laundry, food shopping, or shaving my head, but i feel good doing them because they’re concrete actions that result in results. put time and thought in, get something tangible out. the rest of my day is ambiguous. outside of household chores and interacting with lady, i’m my own boss 24/7/365, and it’s hard to assign myself enough creative, intelligent work to do to keep my mind busy, so i become unfocused, a wee bit down. i need projects like a dead man needs a coffin – more actually, because dead men don’t need nothin. i’m starting a new painting, but that’ll keep my fancy tickled but 2-3 days – a week if things go badly. lady has her cyber network of friends and blogs that keep her company. i find the internet little more than tv for one, and it bores me unless i’m researching fact or fiction. to me, tv is the new tb. my core being is clown and writer. i don’t feel funny lately, so gotta go with writing. have a couple makeshift projects to jumpstart my lazy bones – rewrite my 1st three Smokey Grey short stories (they’re cool, but crude in first write), write a couple poems, and finally after 31 years start my novel where i steal my own soul. of course i could just smoke the day away, but that could be dangerous as well as debilitating because we’ve temporarily lost our supply due to rain. there’s so much rain in the mountains lately the crops aren’t maturing on schedule and what little has matured is impossible to harvest and dry due to wet. they’ve never seen this much precipitation down here – global warming is messing with my high. my basic problem is at heart i’m lazy, world weary. i want to get through the day with neither thought nor action – have entertaining input without any output required. unfortunately my mind demands output, and demands input on said output. i ain’t no sheep, so don’t belong in the sheep pen, but am a weary, wayward wolf.  fat factory, circus, & commission for the defense of human rights – foto by smith |