broken flower with fly – foto by Smith

The Quantum Life

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“Let’s finish the last half of the movie before we go out.”

Okay. I say and set our cardboard box on our old steamer trunk coffee table, lay my laptop on top, hook up the speakers in a couple minutes and walk into the kitchen to tell her the movie’s ready.

“But I’m cooking dinner.”

I thought we were going to finish the film before we left?

“Fine, I’ll cook dinner, we’ll eat, watch movie, leave.”

Sorry babe, there’s not enough time – only enough time to cook, or watch.”

I put the movie back.

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“Want sex?”


We kiss on couch; I suggest we move to bedroom.

“I want a bagel first.”

Wow, that’s fast, from sex to bagel in less than 3 minutes.”

“I’ll eat a bagel, then we’ll have sex, then leave for the reading later.”

After bagel sex we decide not go out after all, she’ll take a cold bath instead.

After bath she dresses nice and puts on make-up.

“What’s with the make-up?”

“Aren’t we’re going to the poetry reading?”

I thought we decided not to go.

“Did we?”

Well if you want, no problem. Do you want to?

“Not really, I’d rather stay home. How about going for a walk instead?”

“That’d be cool.

As I put on my socks she says “I feel lazy, don’t want to go.”

What’s going on here Lady? You’re confusing me.

“I felt you don’t really want to go for a walk, you were only doing it to please me.”

I said I did and meant it – I’d like to walk over to Metro Hospital and see if my Mickey Mice sculpture is still there in the children’s wing so I can shoot it.

“That’s a good idea.”

Put on shoes, get keys, camera, notebook, pen, sit down next to her on the couch and say I’m ready.

“I don’t feel like going out anymore.”

I take off my shoes.

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It feels like rain.

“What do you mean by that?”

Well, it’s getting darker outside and it’s still early afternoon, the sky’s cloudy, the wind’s picking up, I think it’s going to rain.


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the quantum life – foto by Smith

3 Responses

  1. I’m sorry .. but this made me chuckle reading it. familiar territory.

    I hate to admit it but I’ve had days like that… on both sides of the coin. I’ve played the Kathy role and the Steve role. So many silent ques we send or the other thinks we are sending that have little to do with the visible conversation and influence how we react. So much unconscious even to ourselves.

    Relationships are so dependent on conversation and we so seldom voice what we really feel. It is a challenge.

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